Goodbye 2012, Hello Twinkly 2013

Storm Kitten

A new year is a chance at a fresh start.  It’s a new beginning, if that’s what you need it to be, and that’s exactly what I need.  As far as years go, 2012 was not my favorite.  I struggled with my writing, my day job, and my health, and I lost my best friend and kitty of thirteen years, Storm.  So, goodbye, 2012, don’t let the calendar hit you on the behind on your way out!

These last few weeks I’ve been thinking a lot about resolutions, commitments, and what I want for this year of my life.  I decided that 2013 is the year for revision, the year that I take one of my unfinished or rough-around-the-edges manuscripts and rework it, polish it until it shines.  And this is the year that I’ll submit that manuscript to agents.  I decided that my word for the year would be AGENCY, as in, I’m determined to land an agent, but I’m also determined to take more control of my writing, my health, and my time.  I need to have agency in my own life.

So that was my plan, and I thought it was a darn good one.  And it was, until the morning of Wednesday, January 2nd, when I got to work and opened up my brand new moleskine.  New year, new notebook.  Blank pages galore.  What would I fill them with?  I could write anything.  I was the one with the pen in my hand.  I was the one in control.  Except, I didn’t want to be in control; I didn’t want to be the girl with the plan.  I wanted to put the pen to the paper and be surprised about what came out.

A new year is full of unwritten days.  Days that I could plan down to the hours and minutes and fill with structure and commitment.  And I know, without question, that I need to do more of that.  But I also need to be careful not to over-plan, to over-structure, or I’ll miss all the great surprises, the things that happen when you’re not expecting them, the twists and turns and spontaneous moments of squee.  Those are the best parts, after all.

Life is full of unlimited possibilities, like stars in the night sky.  There are so many we can’t even see them all, and they’re so much bigger than they look from here.  So my word for 2013 is STARS, to remind myself not to limit, not to hold back.  To shine brighter than I ever have before.  So come on, 2013, I’m looking forward to seeing what you’ll bring.

Stars, and the glow over the Halemaumau crater of the Kilauea volcano on Big Island, Hawaii by LoveBigIsland, on Flickr